Monday, November 22, 2010

Smashing lojeek

I noticed
that sometimes when I get mad
(where the fuck is the tattoo place??!)

It is a trick
like when I was a kiddie
so edgy with them big huge dogs
barking like crazies
on me way home

and I finally got in my head
that if I pretend to be furious
they won't smell this
gripping fear..

fear and helplessness
is worse than damn anger
so let me scare you
with sharp shouts
and hard stares
don't think for a minute
that I'm scared shit

oh man
I wish I was
a moose

or somethin..

Saturday, November 13, 2010

so many good garden moments

Friday, November 12, 2010

on simplicating

Now for the first time after years
I am practicing what it is to be just me..

Like getting back to comfortable shoes
Like finding your true name

Realizing inside that it don't matter
Where you go
Where you are
What role you play
(No need to play a role
No need to go anywhere to feel special)

You can still be completely your own self

Hard to explain
Better to just feel it..

Friday, November 05, 2010

How -ling Wolf

There is a house
but how do you turn it into a home?
How do you make it hug you when you come
not just hold your STUFF
How do you feel at ease at a surprise visit
and not glance with hidden terror at the raging mess

I want to take most of it
put it in humongous bags
and go Amish on my dome

There is so little I need
and yet there is so much

Why like this
How can it change
and why do I flip from lonely to independent every 4 minutes
or so..

So many questions
and this here screen
has taken a vow of silence